No, I Cannot be Silent, and I am NOT sorry.

I have written, deleted and rewritten this blog so many times I cannot even keep track. I have had the worst writers block and really have not felt lead by Jesus to write anything new but as I am sitting here in a starbucks near my home, digging into the bible and praying to God for wisdom and strength I was struck with the strongest feeling ever to write, this however, as per usual, requires a back story.

This last Sunday at church I had the most powerful prayer experience ever. Our pastor was telling us of a dream he had that felt so real, of the sun going dark and knowing that Jesus, our savior, was coming (see Joel 2:7-17, Matthew 24:29-31, Luke 21:25-28 and Acts 2:17-21). I was on my knees praying and crying out to our Lord, my heart is so full of the love of Jesus that I literally cannot contain it, and Sunday night was very special because Noah and I, as we were leaving Freddy’s, found a new sister in Christ named Jillian. Since Sunday, I have felt so led and encouraged to be bolder with my faith, not to let fear hold me back from sharing the good news. Anyways, as I am sitting here, in a small table near the door drinking my coffee, a verse especially stood out to me, “Now when these things take place, straighten up and raise your heads because redemption is drawing near” Luke 21:28.

“Redemption is drawing near”. I am still trying to wrap my small head around that, that Jesus is coming soon. As a Christian, I am judged all the time for how open I am with my faith and how much I publically love Jesus (which I mean how can ya not just scream it from the mountain tops, he died for you!! Jesus is so good!! He loves you so much!!). I am told that maybe I shouldn’t pray so loud, or “hey you’re yelling about Jesus again” or things of the sort. I am told time and time again to “not shove Jesus down people’s throats” and I am told to just let others believe what they want. I can no longer do that and I am not sorry. Judgement day is coming and I cannot sit and be silent any longer, God is coming soon to take his children whom have dedicated their life to him. He is coming soon and it would be a sin to sit here and act like it’s not happening and act like it would be okay to not see some of my friends in heaven. I am not sorry. That verse struck me, or shook me if you will, and it would be wasted time to not share it. The sun will become dark and the stars will fall from the sky and the powers of Heaven will be shook and the Son will come down on a cloud to us and angels will surround heaven from end to end. A day will come, very very soon, where we will all face the Lord our God and there will be a list a mile long of all our sins against God and the way to redemption is through the blood of Jesus Christ. Know him as your Lord and Savior and love him and you are to be saved and spend eternity in heaven with him!

I wrote this blog to explain the seriousness of committing your life to Jesus Christ and loving him and serving him and living out his plans for you. One thing that was said that I think really made it clear how important loving Jesus fully and worshipping him alone is, our Pastor said something along the lines of “Just as a woman will never be happy if her husband has other lovers, we will never be happy if we have other loves besides Jesus Christ alone”. I wish I could put into words how serious this is and how important it is to stop playing around and start serving the Lord, digging into His word that he gave to us. My only purpose was to try and maybe explain, just a little, how pressing this matter is.

So get into your Bible, read it. Pray. Pray with others and be bold with your faith because Jesus is coming and there is no time to play around and be shy. Be bold and faithful.

Thank you for reading and being so incredibly supportive of the journey I am on. It has not been an easy journey but sharing on this blog has been changing my life and I am so humbled by those who take time to read it. Thank you, God bless.

With love,


Lil