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So this blog I want to try to do something a little bit different than what I usually write about. I’ve been wanting to write about this for awhile but I just haven’t yet but now I feel like, more than ever, I should share this.
If you have any form of social media or eyes and ears in general you should know that I am approaching ten delightful months of dating my best friend!! (How exciting!!). These have been some of the most challenging and also greatest months I have experienced. Now, there are two kinds of people who know Noah and I: those who think we are adorable and say we are “goals” and those who think we are annoying and claim that we use social media to validate our relationship. However, we are neither of these. I want to address both groups of people in this blog, so bear with me for the next few paragraphs.
Noah and I are both really happy, overly positive people. We are both also extremely affectionate people and we have several ways of showing our love towards each other. Sometimes it’s through compliments, or words of affirmation, hand holding or small gifts. Another way we often show affection is through social media, showing that neither of us are ashamed of the other; we WANT to show the other off. Whenever I post about Noah, it is not for other people. It’s for us, I think he is one of the most amazing guys I have ever met and I am so proud to call him mine, so of course I want to show my boy off!! Another reason I am so active on social media about this relationship is due to a rocky start, and before anyone gets the wrong idea: Noah and I have never had a fight so it wasn’t like that. In the first three months of us being together, almost everyone that we knew were completely against us. Said we should break up, or that we were just using each other as rebound since recently both of us had just gotten out of relationships. The first three months really tested us, because we could have avoided a lot of pain and tension from others at school had we just broken up. However, the testimony that comes from this is that against what everyone was saying, we kept strong. We kept an open line of communication and we bonded over the hurt we were both feeling which only made us closer. Although sad, I think that bond we formed is partly why distance is not affecting our relationship. Don’t get me wrong, I miss him so much, but he’s in my heart and that’s as close as two people can be.
Moving onto something different: something I hear a ton is, “oh my gosh you and Noah are seriously GOALS!” and while flattering is far from the truth. “Goals” implies this idea of perfection and we are both so far from that. We have things that we both work on every single day to make our relationship better, but we are not and will never be perfect. In this, I feel it is important however to describe to y’all as best I can the foundation and the nature of our relationship.
One of the first dates that Noah asked me on after asking me to be his girlfriend was to a worship, prayer group thing that he went to every Monday night at Joel’s Coffee Shop called “Liturgy”. I was hesitant to go at first because I was still finding my stance on my faith and I knew this would be some intense thing and I hadn’t been to a youth group like this since the 8th grade and I wouldn’t know anyone there and Good Lord did I have anxiety about it. However, eventually I went, and I kept going. Every single Monday, I would go with Noah to this group and I slowly got to know his friends. There was one specific Monday night that has really stood out to me. One night we were asked to get these cups and we wrote everything, good and bad, that was in our hearts on the cup. Like many others, there were several negative things on my cup and I tried to keep it kind of hidden from the people I was sitting near because I felt so vulnerable. At the end of the night we cut a hole in the bottom of the cup to signify letting all of ourselves go and letting God or something of that sort. Driving home that night, Noah asked if it would be okay if we traded cups so we knew how to pray for each other so we did. I still have his cup and he still has mine. This was back in January when we did this.
Since that night, Noah and I have bonded greatly and here’s why: we built our relationship on Jesus from day one. I think one of of the most incredible things about our relationship is that I know that Noah loves me so much, and I know he loves God so much more. Noah knows that I love him, but I love Jesus so much more. We love Jesus so much that we’re starting to love LIKE Jesus. You wanna talk about goals? Cute photos, promposals and netflix dates are not goals. Loving Jesus together is goals. Praying with each other when we’re both scared, and praying for healing over each other, THAT’S “goals”. In all honestly, we’re not doing anything extraordinary. We are loving each other like the Bible tells us to. That’s it. Because of that, distance will never win. Our relationship is stronger than 200 miles and it’s stronger than 1,000 miles. He’s my best friend and he’s the guy I get to love.
Ladies- if I could give a word of advice: stop chasing boys and chase after the MAN who died to love you into forever. Then God will send you a man who is worthy of your love. Dudes- same to you. Stop chasing women and chase after the father and He will send you a Godly woman worthy of your love.
The purpose of this was simply to shine a little light on the parts of Noah and I’s relationship that we don’t really talk about too much. The parts that really matter. I hope some of you got something from this. For those who get annoyed by us- I hope you all now understand why I express my love so much in so many outlets, including social media. For those who thought we were “goals”- I hope you now understand what goals really are.
Thank you so much for reading!
"I loved you at your darkest" - Romans 5:8
wife // local kids pastor // mama to my heaven boy + my rainbow girl